jodawi: (shiny toaster)
My inner geeks yearns to buy mittel a new fancy computer system, but it is difficult to do so when she says things like "Why do I need a new computer? It works just fine. Just get me a monitor."


Women.*
jodawi: (shiny toaster)
My inner geeks yearns to buy mittel a new fancy computer system, but it is difficult to do so when she says things like "Why do I need a new computer? It works just fine. Just get me a monitor."


Women.*
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My body's clock is now in the same time zone as Nuku'alofa.

Tonga is the only remaining Polynesian monarchy. Nukualofa is the country’s capital, chief port, and largest town. The main exports are copra, bananas, vanilla, and handicrafts such as C++ code.
jodawi: (Default)
My body's clock is now in the same time zone as Nuku'alofa.

Tonga is the only remaining Polynesian monarchy. Nukualofa is the country’s capital, chief port, and largest town. The main exports are copra, bananas, vanilla, and handicrafts such as C++ code.
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Sometimes I spend an hour or two mostly staring at the screen, or closing my eyes and rocking back in forth in my chair. During this time I'm designing code in my head, or contemplating the complicated ramifications of doing something a certain way. If I were in a regular office, I'd have to make sure my exterior matched my interior, so no coworkers or bosses would think I spent much of the day doing nothing.

Also, when I am sleeping at home during business hours, my snoring doesn't bother the people in the offices next to me.
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Sometimes I spend an hour or two mostly staring at the screen, or closing my eyes and rocking back in forth in my chair. During this time I'm designing code in my head, or contemplating the complicated ramifications of doing something a certain way. If I were in a regular office, I'd have to make sure my exterior matched my interior, so no coworkers or bosses would think I spent much of the day doing nothing.

Also, when I am sleeping at home during business hours, my snoring doesn't bother the people in the offices next to me.
jodawi: (madonna and child)
It poked me in the head that we share quite a lot of high-bandwidth inter-species language. It just has whines, growls, use of eyes and muscle tension, yelps, etc, where the words are all implicit instead of explicit.

Nebu tells me "I'm bored, fix it" or tells the room "I'm going fucking nuts!!" several hours a day.

I'm not confident that getting a kitten will do much to help with that, but I am confident that a kitten may feel like another 20 year sentence constraining everything about my life.
jodawi: (madonna and child)
It poked me in the head that we share quite a lot of high-bandwidth inter-species language. It just has whines, growls, use of eyes and muscle tension, yelps, etc, where the words are all implicit instead of explicit.

Nebu tells me "I'm bored, fix it" or tells the room "I'm going fucking nuts!!" several hours a day.

I'm not confident that getting a kitten will do much to help with that, but I am confident that a kitten may feel like another 20 year sentence constraining everything about my life.
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Anhedonia, the inability to gain pleasure from normally pleasurable experiences. ... She recalls the anhedonia of some of her darkest moments when she sat down to listen to Elgar's Enigma variations and found to her horror that she was left completely unmoved by the hauntingly beautiful music she had always loved.

I was putting together a list of my favorite music of all time yesterday, and upon playing some I'd think I know that once affected me more, so I'd add to the list based on history.

Major anhedonia once as an undergrad - worse than the sad of "depression" was the blank gray emptiness. But then little manic bursts.

Atypical wrongalia.

1.  Do you regularly experience any of the following symptoms that might be associated with depression?

Low energy, fatigue Yes
Lack of motivation Yes
Muscle tension Yes
Trouble concentrating Yes
Loss of interest Yes
Sleep problems Yes
Feeling withdrawn, lonely and/or isolated Yes
Crying or feelings of sadness Sometimes
Feeling worthless and/or hopeless Sometimes
Body aches Sometimes
Frequent headaches No
Low self-esteem No
Stomach upset No
Change in appetite No
Thoughts of death and suicide No

2.  Do you regularly experience any of the following symptoms that might be associated with anxiety disorders?

Low energy, fatigue Yes
Trouble concentrating Yes
Muscle tension Yes
Sleep problems Yes
Overwhelming and debilitating fear in social situations Yes
Fear of embarrassment Yes
Avoiding feared situations Yes
Excessive blushing Sometimes
Profuse sweating Sometimes
Excessive worry Sometimes
Recognition that fears are excessive Sometimes
Irritability Sometimes
Body aches Sometimes
Tension No
Feeling fearful/nervous No
Jittery/can't keep still No
Agitation No
Stomach upset No
Trembling (hands or voice) No
Low self-esteem No
Racing/pounding heart No

Interesting the odd mistakes they have in their notes. "Wife who is 19 yo has moved back to West Coast." So I married her when she was 14??

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Anhedonia, the inability to gain pleasure from normally pleasurable experiences. ... She recalls the anhedonia of some of her darkest moments when she sat down to listen to Elgar's Enigma variations and found to her horror that she was left completely unmoved by the hauntingly beautiful music she had always loved.

I was putting together a list of my favorite music of all time yesterday, and upon playing some I'd think I know that once affected me more, so I'd add to the list based on history.

Major anhedonia once as an undergrad - worse than the sad of "depression" was the blank gray emptiness. But then little manic bursts.

Atypical wrongalia.

1.  Do you regularly experience any of the following symptoms that might be associated with depression?

Low energy, fatigue Yes
Lack of motivation Yes
Muscle tension Yes
Trouble concentrating Yes
Loss of interest Yes
Sleep problems Yes
Feeling withdrawn, lonely and/or isolated Yes
Crying or feelings of sadness Sometimes
Feeling worthless and/or hopeless Sometimes
Body aches Sometimes
Frequent headaches No
Low self-esteem No
Stomach upset No
Change in appetite No
Thoughts of death and suicide No

2.  Do you regularly experience any of the following symptoms that might be associated with anxiety disorders?

Low energy, fatigue Yes
Trouble concentrating Yes
Muscle tension Yes
Sleep problems Yes
Overwhelming and debilitating fear in social situations Yes
Fear of embarrassment Yes
Avoiding feared situations Yes
Excessive blushing Sometimes
Profuse sweating Sometimes
Excessive worry Sometimes
Recognition that fears are excessive Sometimes
Irritability Sometimes
Body aches Sometimes
Tension No
Feeling fearful/nervous No
Jittery/can't keep still No
Agitation No
Stomach upset No
Trembling (hands or voice) No
Low self-esteem No
Racing/pounding heart No

Interesting the odd mistakes they have in their notes. "Wife who is 19 yo has moved back to West Coast." So I married her when she was 14??

jodawi: (Default)
day older
$50 pancakes
people that were not yet born when i was legally an adult are now legally adults. this makes me twice-baked legal.
dad unit comes to visit today
jodawi: (Default)
day older
$50 pancakes
people that were not yet born when i was legally an adult are now legally adults. this makes me twice-baked legal.
dad unit comes to visit today
jodawi: (gold sleep)
*gets Dead Can Dance tickets*

I've seen:

Hair   (college, but pretty good)
Stomp
Kitka
Pink Floyd
Nutcracker
Philip Glass
Emmylou Harris
Prairie Home Companion

And that may be it. And at the prices I'm seeing on these things, there may be a good reason why that may be it.
jodawi: (gold sleep)
*gets Dead Can Dance tickets*

I've seen:

Hair   (college, but pretty good)
Stomp
Kitka
Pink Floyd
Nutcracker
Philip Glass
Emmylou Harris
Prairie Home Companion

And that may be it. And at the prices I'm seeing on these things, there may be a good reason why that may be it.
jodawi: (Default)
LiveJournal Members,

I have bad skin. This is the new addition to the collection which already included hair, neurochemical ratios, eyes, olfactory sense, and teeth.

Best Regards,
[livejournal.com profile] jodawi
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LiveJournal Members,

I have bad skin. This is the new addition to the collection which already included hair, neurochemical ratios, eyes, olfactory sense, and teeth.

Best Regards,
[livejournal.com profile] jodawi
jodawi: (jodaoi)

I'm amused by this, living with a scorpio and being a pisces. Now I'm wondering what misc exes were...birthday book seems to have gone into hiding again. Wee shy flower fairies birthday book. (Quick eve_l_incarnataeve_l, avert your eyes!)

Which sun-sign am I most friendly with?

Scorpio leftbarright 15.79% (9 friends)
Aquarius leftbarright 14.04% (8 friends)
Virgo leftbarright 14.04% (8 friends)
Aries leftbarright 8.77% (5 friends)
Leo leftbarright 8.77% (5 friends)
Taurus leftbarright 8.77% (5 friends)
Sagittarius leftbarright 7.02% (4 friends)
Capricorn leftbarright 5.26% (3 friends)
Gemini leftbarright 5.26% (3 friends)
Libra leftbarright 5.26% (3 friends)
Cancer leftbarright 3.51% (2 friends)
Pisces leftbarright 3.51% (2 friends)
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jodawi: (jodaoi)

I'm amused by this, living with a scorpio and being a pisces. Now I'm wondering what misc exes were...birthday book seems to have gone into hiding again. Wee shy flower fairies birthday book. (Quick eve_l_incarnataeve_l, avert your eyes!)

Which sun-sign am I most friendly with?

Scorpio leftbarright 15.79% (9 friends)
Aquarius leftbarright 14.04% (8 friends)
Virgo leftbarright 14.04% (8 friends)
Aries leftbarright 8.77% (5 friends)
Leo leftbarright 8.77% (5 friends)
Taurus leftbarright 8.77% (5 friends)
Sagittarius leftbarright 7.02% (4 friends)
Capricorn leftbarright 5.26% (3 friends)
Gemini leftbarright 5.26% (3 friends)
Libra leftbarright 5.26% (3 friends)
Cancer leftbarright 3.51% (2 friends)
Pisces leftbarright 3.51% (2 friends)
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